Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Connections

Last night I was dreaming that I was paying a visit to my mother and step father. They had moved into a new residence and invited me to come see it. This was most likely "dreams imitating life", since this did happen in January, but as dreams go it wasn't their new place it was entirely different.

In my dream I walked down a long narrow flight of stairs that was akin to a circular staircase but walled in. It wasn't something my mother could navigate in her current state. When I reached their main room it was a large, carpeted open space with little or no furniture and my mother was laying on the floor slightly propped up. The room was completely glassed walled and looked out onto a golf course. This made my step dad giddy with excitement. He loves his golf.

I leaned down to ask my mother how she felt about their new place and she smiled at me and said "It was fine." I know her and I knew she was just going along with what would make her husband happy but as she lay there on the floor, I knew things weren't "fine".

It was at that exact moment in REAL LIFE, 4:08 AM, that my cell phone rang with the ring that told me it was coming from my mother's home. My thoughts went to the worst but my gut wasn't getting that feeling that it was "the call". My step dad was on the other end of line to tell me that my mother had fallen again (she fell last Saturday as well) and he couldn't lift her. I told him we were on our way.

When we got to their home, my mother was on the floor propped up as in my dream and was telling me she was "fine". Mrs. MM and I lifted her to safety, assessed that she would be alright and breathed a sign of relief.

My mother and I have always had a special connection. I have always known when it was her on the other end of a call even before I would pick up. We would jokingly blame her Gypsy blood on the phenomenon. Her mother's maiden name was Zinga. A woman who was born on Halloween and died on Easter. But those are just fun facts. I know this special connection will soon be broken forever and it saddens me. So for now, I just have to appreciate it day to day and stay open to the fact that connections of the spiritual kind are real and should be cherished.

Are you connected?

15 comments:

Deb said...

This post really tugged at my heart. So weird that you had a premonition type of dream. My mother and I are very much like you and your mom. We're so connected it's scary. We once dreamed the SAME dream, and both wrote down the details to everything that had taken place and were both stunned to think: wow, did we meet in a dream? There was a time when I was younger where I fell off a small cliff with my three wheel motorcycle behind our house in a trail. I was trapped under it while it kept sinking my head (with helmet) deeper into the mud. My mother claims that she knew what had happened, as if an angel told her and ran over to the location that was appx. a half a mile away from the house. She saved my life. There are SO many stories like that---so I won't bore you to death, but my point is: I am SO scared of her leaving me. She is 73 years old and we are best friends. I was just telling a friend today, that I really think I would have a heart attack if God forbid anything happened to her.

I totally feel your pain in this post. My mother pulled me aside yesterday and said, "You know, I'm really starting to forget things, Deb..." My heart broke right there.

But, on a positive note: just think about your close connection. Can it ever be broken? Of course not. Not even when God decides to take her. Believe that, because I solely believe that my mom and I will always be together, no matter what.

Stay positive!
{{hugs}}

Angelina said...

MM

It is lovely that you have this connection with your mom.

An interesting dream. One interpretation could be another change is going to occur soon. Whatever the change you and your mom will always have the bond whereby you will know her true feelings.

Many blessings to you and your family.

Ms Hen said...

It will never be broken... she will live on just in a different manner...and still be connected to you.. if you believe. (hugs)

lakeviewer said...

Having a closeness like yours is a blessing.

Titanium said...

This Connection is a live thing- it existed before any of us and remains long after it can't be explained.

She will always be with you, the Connection will sing you to her when longing overwhelms you both.

My thoughts are with you, and with her.

Cloudia said...

VERY Real!


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Brian Miller said...

glad you have that...and glad she is ok. i believe it happens...thoughts and prayer monkey...

Green-Eyed Momster said...

My hubby's mom saved my life and #1 Son's life. She was a saint but she suffered horribly with Alzheimer's. It saddens me that she is gone.

My only advice is to spend every moment you can with her.

Oh gosh, Monkey Man, this will be very hard on you. I'm so sorry.

(Hugs from my family to yours.)

Marla said...

Yes, I was connected and still am. Love doesn't die.

You are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend.

Shadow said...

in a way, a different way. but not like this. you're fortunate!

Shrinky said...

My goodness, what an amazing thing to experience, and in many ways, comforting too..?

Glad I popped by.

Nessa said...

I am glad it turned out your mom was ok. Connections are very real.

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Matty said...

You have a special bond with your mother, and the dream is evidence of that. I'm happy to hear that she's still with you. Be strong.

arlee bird said...

Oh, that is cool, psychicly speaking. I really like dreams, but I don't think I've ever had a connected dream in that way. But I know my dreams are telling me something.
Lee

Marilynne said...

These things happen to me too. I often know who is exactly on the phone before I answer it and I don't have caller ID.

My parents are gone now, but I still feel a connection to them. Enjoy it because not every one can.